This is, after all, a philosophy blog.
The tent billowed beneath a bruised sky. Storm winds tugged at the rigging, tested every seam, strained every rope, loosened the stakes holding it to the softening ground. Inside, the sawdust floor had begun to darken with moisture where floodwaters seeped underneath the perimeter.
I watch from the shadows near the main entrance, having returned to the circus after what feels like both a lifetime and mere moments. The air carries the electric scent of ozone, the physical manifestation of a threshold about to be crossed.
The Ringmaster stands at the center pole, one hand resting lightly against its weathered surface, his gaze fixed not on any particular act, but on a space beyond sight. Around him, the performers wait. Watching. Some pretend to adjust costumes or check equipment. But everyone is listening—to the silence between thunder cracks, to the canvas straining against the gale, and most of all, to the man who has yet to speak.
He's been different these past weeks. They've all noticed. Not afraid—they've seen him face the high wire in hurricane-force winds enough to know what fear looks like on him. This is something else. A gravity. A weight of knowledge he seems to carry in his shoulders, in the new lines etched around his eyes.
I notice a familiar face among the waiting performers—the solitary woman, no longer defined by absence but by her own quiet strength. Her eyes meet mine across the distance, and she gives a slight nod of recognition. Near her stands the man with the briefcase, though it's closed now, his attention focused entirely on the Ringmaster.
Then, without ceremony, the Ringmaster looks to the band conductor.
“All performers.”
The conductor nods and raises his baton. Across the tent, a single, pure note from the calliope pierces through the muffled thunder. The sound cuts through the backstage areas, the dressing rooms, the animal cages, the rigging platforms. A sound older than any of them, now carrying a message none had heard before.
Everywhere, motion stops. An acrobat's hand freezes mid-chalk. A conversation between clowns ends abruptly. A lion tamer sets down his chair without looking away from the speaker. Men and women suspend themselves in that instant between breath and breath.
From behind me, a familiar voice speaks softly:
“This is the moment of decision.”
I glance back to find Hitchens, tumbler of whiskey in hand, watching with fierce attention. Beside him stands Jefferson, his expression grave yet resolute. Camus leans against a support pole, cigarette smoke curling upward in the still air. And Socrates—the old questioner—stands slightly apart, eyes missing nothing.
The Ringmaster faces them all.
“This is the Ringmaster.”
He lets the silence hold, commanding attention not by spectacle, but by stillness.
“I spent too long believing we could wait this out. That the structure would hold if we kept the performance alive. I was wrong.”
The admission hangs in the air, not diminishing his authority but deepening it, lending moral weight to what follows.
“I won't dress it up. The world beyond the tent isn't the one we've been performing for. The barbarians are at the gates. Not as invaders from distant lands, but as those who once sat among us. Not as strangers to our traditions, but as those who learned our ways only to corrupt them.
We've received word. What we feared might come has already arrived. Not as spectacle. As reality.
We are not preparing for a show the way the program describes it. There will be no evacuation. No retreat to safer ground. This is our stand—for memory, for truth, for whether the promise of the circus—that space where wonder and truth coexist—survives at all.”
In the costume room, Madam Zhao lays her needle down on silk, her fingers stilling as she stares at the speaking tube mounted on the tent pole. High above, on the trapeze platform, Santiago stops his equipment check and closes his eyes, listening. In the animal enclosure, a dozen handlers sit motionless, their feeding routines forgotten. In the first aid tent, Doctor Eliza's hand freezes in the act of writing, her eyes lifting to meet those of her assistant across the examination table.
“He's not telling them anything they don't already know,” Hitchens observes quietly. “He's giving them permission to acknowledge what they've been feeling.”
Jefferson nods. “The hardest truth to face is the one we've been pretending not to see.”
Throughout the circus, they listen. Standing still in practice rings and prop storage, pressed against tent poles and rope ladders, they hear something in the Ringmaster's voice that can't be mistaken for showmanship. It is resolve. It is grief sharpened into purpose.
“They will tell you it's too late. That our tent is too fragile, that our ways are obsolete. That the circus is a quaint superstition. That truth is negotiable. That loyalty belongs to patrons, not principles.
But we know better. We carry the truth in our bones. And if we don't hold this center—if we don't stand our ground right here, right now—then no one will.”
As if in response to his words, a tremendous crack of thunder shakes the tent. The lights flicker once, twice—and then the single bulb suspended from the center pole goes out with a soft, final pop.
Darkness falls. Not the absolute darkness of a sealed room, but the uncertain twilight of a space suddenly deprived of its primary illumination. Gasps ripple through the gathered performers. Someone stumbles against a prop. A child whimpers.
Then, in the darkness, a small flame appears—a lighter, a match, a candle. Then another. And another. All across the tent, performers produce them as if they've been waiting for precisely this moment, as if they've been carrying these small sources of light for years, anticipating the darkness.
Fire is passed from hand to hand. Candles are lit from torches. Oil lamps that haven't been used in generations are brought out from storage, their wicks trimmed, their reservoirs filled.
In the small archival tent, a woman I recognize as The Historian quietly closes the Circus Charter she's been reading. The small leather-bound edition had been her mother's, then her grandmother's—passed down through a family that had performed since the First Great Circus. The words inside are faded but unaltered: The Circus serves Truth through Wonder. Not power through deception. Not wealth through exploitation. Not loyalty to any one patron. Truth through Wonder.
“The Charter,” Socrates murmurs. “The foundational agreement. The space where the question can live without premature answers destroying it.”
“So here is the directive.”
He pauses.
In the silence, every performer can hear the canvas breathing. Some think of home—not just the buildings and streets, but the idea of it. The promise. The covenant. A place where wonder serves truth rather than obscuring it. Where performances reveal rather than conceal. Where reality is not whatever power declares it to be.
The Ringmaster looks to the Assistant Ringmaster, his face now illuminated from below by a torch that casts dramatic shadows across his features.
“Secure every entrance. Reinforce every pole. All performers to starting positions. And prepare for The Revealer.”
The Assistant's jaw tenses, but his eyes are bright in the torchlight.
“Understood,” he says, turning to the stage manager. “All performers to starting positions. Full company required. The Revealer will commence at first breach.”
“The Revealer?” The stage manager's voice falters. “But that hasn't been performed in—”
“In generations,” the Assistant finishes. “Yes. The time has come.”
No one had seen The Revealer in a generation.
But everyone remembered what it meant.
“The Revealer,” Camus repeats softly, something like recognition crossing his features. “The performance that strips away illusion rather than creating it.”
“The act that turns spectacle against itself,” Jefferson adds. “That uses wonder not to distract but to illuminate.”
Throughout the tent, movement resumes, now guided by the flickering, undulating light of hundreds of small flames. The circus takes on a different quality in this ancient illumination—less a modern entertainment venue, more a primal gathering space, a place of ritual and memory.
My eyes are drawn to a little girl, perhaps seven or eight years old, standing near the edge of the center ring. She wears the costume of a junior performer—sequins catching the light, hair pulled back in a tight bun—but it's the candle in her hands that commands attention. A simple taper, held in small fingers that cup protectively around the flame. As drafts from the storm outside find their way through the canvas, the flame bends, flickers, struggles—but doesn't go out. The child's face is a study in concentration, in fierce determination to protect this small light against forces that would extinguish it.
Jefferson follows my gaze. His expression softens slightly at the sight of the child, then hardens again with resolve.
“Tyranny has returned,” he says quietly. “Not in powdered wigs or royal regalia, but in suits and slogans. Not claiming divine right, but popular mandate. Different costume, same performance.”
“Now we rebel,” Camus adds, his voice carrying that distinctive mixture of weariness and determination. “One must imagine Sisyphus happy!”
The declaration catches me by surprise—not just the words themselves, familiar from his writings, but the energy behind them. Not resignation but affirmation. Not acceptance but defiance. The recognition that meaning comes not from the completion of the task but from the choice to undertake it despite knowing it may never end.
I feel a hand on my shoulder and turn to find the man with the briefcase beside me.
“It's time,” he says quietly, offering me the briefcase. “The note you've been carrying—the one I gave you before. Open it now.”
With fingers that feel surprisingly steady, I withdraw the sealed note from my pocket—the one he entrusted to me during my previous visit to the circus. The seal breaks easily under my touch, as if it had been waiting for precisely this moment.
Inside, in handwriting both ancient and immediate, are words that seem to glow with their own inner light:
“When the lights go out, be among those who kindle new flames. The center cannot be held by observation alone. The Grand Praxis is not philosophy but action—not theory but lived truth. Take your place among the defenders. The Revealer requires your voice.”
As I read these words, performers transform the circus into a fortress of light—hundreds of small flames creating a constellation within the tent, a universe of human defiance against the darkness. Ropes are doubled. Stakes driven deeper. The high wire, which has always symbolized the precarious balance of truth, is now being reinforced not for retreat but for defiance.
I look again at the little girl with her candle. A strong gust finds its way into the tent, and her flame bends nearly horizontal. For a moment, it seems certain to extinguish—but she turns slightly, positioning her body as a shield, and the flame recovers. Her expression never changes—neither fear nor triumph, just the absolute focus of someone performing a task she knows is essential.
“This is where philosophy ends and civic courage begins,” Hitchens says, his voice carrying that characteristic intensity. “Where the note becomes not just something passed but something lived.”
Outside, thunder crashes closer. The wind finds new gaps in the canvas, creating eerie whistles and moans. And beyond the tent walls, something else—voices. Not the usual excited chatter of arriving audiences, but something harsher. More demanding. The sound of those who don't come to witness wonder but to claim ownership of it.
The Assistant looks back, one hand still working at a knot.
“Master,” he says. “They're coming...”
The Ringmaster nods, unsurprised.
“I know.”
A pause. And then, almost to himself:
“May love carry us home.”
The words settle over the company like a benediction. A sacred phrase. A final truth.
“May love carry us home,” the wire walker whispers, her voice barely audible.
All across the circus, the phrase begins to spread. Not through the speaking tubes, but through the human network—performer to performer, rigger to clown, a current of words passing through the canvas structure. In the costume room, Madam Zhao murmurs it as she brings out artifacts not seen in decades. In the lighting booth, technicians repeat it as they redirect their remaining illumination toward the approaching threat. In the concession stand, the vendor writes it on the board where he usually notes the day's prices.
May love carry us home.
“This is where it all leads,” Jefferson says quietly. “Not to perfect understanding, but to necessary action. Not to certainty, but to commitment despite uncertainty.”
“The absurd man faces what cannot be resolved,” Camus adds. “Not with despair but with defiance—with the creation of meaning through the very act of resistance.”
“And the philosophical life culminates not in knowing but in doing,” Socrates concludes. “In the alignment of understanding with action, of perception with response.”
I feel something shifting within me—not just understanding but transformation. The note in my hand seems to pulse with possibility, with invitation. Not to observe The Revealer, but to participate in it. Not to document the circus's final stand, but to join it.
The solitary woman approaches, her steps now purposeful rather than hesitant.
“You've been watching long enough,” she says, not unkindly. “They need your voice now. We all do.”
She hands me a candle, unlit. Then reaches out with her own flame to touch the wick. Fire transfers from her candle to mine—not diminished in the sharing but multiplied.
All across the circus, from animal enclosures to the highest platforms, performers move with new purpose. Not blindly. Not naively. But with conviction. They know what waits. They understand the odds. And they choose, each in their own way, to stand their ground.
In her small tent, The Historian carefully places the Circus Charter back in its worn velvet case. Her great-grandmother carried it through the Great Depression. Her grandmother through World War II. Her mother through the Cold War. Now it is her turn.
Two plus two equals four. There are twenty-four hours in a day. These simple truths remain, no matter who tries to bend reality to their will. And the oath she has taken—to serve Truth through Wonder, to protect the space where meaning is made—remains as well. Not an abstraction but a concrete commitment to protect something precious and increasingly fragile.
I look to my philosophical companions—Hitchens, Jefferson, Camus, Socrates—and find them watching me with quiet expectation.
“We can only accompany you so far,” Hitchens says, raising his glass slightly. “The rest is yours.”
“Remember what you've learned,” Jefferson adds. “Not as doctrine, but as orientation.”
“Find joy in the resistance itself,” Camus offers, extinguishing his cigarette deliberately. “Not because victory is assured, but because the act of standing against the absurd is what makes us human.”
“And never stop questioning,” Socrates concludes with that familiar penetrating gaze. “Even—especially—in the midst of action.”
With that, they step back, not vanishing but receding—remaining present but no longer central, like principles that have been internalized rather than merely contemplated.
I fold the note and place it over my heart, my candle held high, then step forward, joining the company as they prepare for The Revealer. The Ringmaster turns as I approach.
“I'm here to live the answer,” I say.
He nods. “Then you're here.”
I find myself reaching for the tools that have always been within reach—the notebook to record, the pen to analyze—but instead, my hands grasp something different. A stake to secure the tent against the wind. A rope to reinforce the rigging. Tools not of observation but of defense.
For the first time, I understand that holding the center isn't a metaphor. It's a physical act. The literal work of securing what matters against forces that would tear it apart. Of reinforcing the space where truth can still be spoken, where wonder can still serve clarity rather than distraction.
Outside, voices grow louder. Demands. Threats. The sound of those who believe might makes right, who believe truth is whatever they declare it to be, who believe the circus exists to serve their desires rather than to preserve a space where wonder and truth coexist.
And within, the circus prepares not to flee but to stand.
Not because the danger isn't real. Not because victory is assured. But because the alternative—surrendering the center, abandoning what they are sworn to protect—is unthinkable.
The center must be held—not because it is easy, but because it is ours to hold.
As we move toward our starting positions, the solitary woman—now a comrade, now a fellow defender—whispers the words that have sustained the circus through generations of storms:
“Hold the center. Push back the flood. Keep walking the wire.”
And I reply with the words that have finally revealed their full meaning—not just as philosophy but as commitment, not just as observation but as action:
“May love carry us home.”
I glance back once more. Her flame still burns.
The Revealer begins.
Regarding Mike Brock's Commentary "Where Philosophy Ends and Courage Begins," posted on
4/25/2025
Bravo. This is a Hallelujah piece. This is brilliant writing that should be sent around the country and beyond. This is the caviar, the nectar that I signed up for. I applaud you.
"The hardest truth to face is the one we've been pretending not to see." -Brock
"I'm here to live the answer," I say. -Brock
I too, am here to live the answer so that others will not live in oppression, ruled by a tyrant, a sick pathological malignancy who has created chaos, and DOGE (Destroy Our Great Experiment).
Mike Brock, make your commentary today into a PDF to be sent to millions across America. I would support this as a screenplay to be shown on PBS and written up in every periodical. It is of the same level as Charlie Chaplin's The Great Dictator. Thank you, my fellow citizen. I am proud of what you have written. This is the America where I want to live.
Wonderful, incisive, inspiring piece, Mike. Perhaps we, as both audience members and performers in the circus can hold candles for truth, love, justice, share the light in us all, not only figuratively but literally. Perhaps night time protests with candles in cities and towns around the country can spark a part of an essential resistance. “This little light of mine, I’m gonna make it shine”.
Greta Thunberg started alone and sparked a major protest wave. We can do the same.