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The tent billowed beneath a bruised sky. Storm winds tugged at the rigging, tested every seam, strained every rope, loosened the stakes holding it to the softening ground. Inside, the sawdust floor had begun to darken with moisture where floodwaters seeped underneath the perimeter.
I watch from the shadows near the main entrance, having returned to the circus after what feels like both a lifetime and mere moments. The air carries the electric scent of ozone, the physical manifestation of a threshold about to be crossed.
The Ringmaster stands at the center pole, one hand resting lightly against its weathered surface, his gaze fixed not on any particular act, but on a space beyond sight. Around him, the performers wait. Watching. Some pretend to adjust costumes or check equipment. But everyone is listening—to the silence between thunder cracks, to the canvas straining against the gale, and most of all, to the man who has yet to speak.
He's been different these past weeks. They've all noticed. Not afraid—they've seen him face the high wire in hurricane-force winds enough to know what fear looks like on him. This is something else. A gravity. A weight of knowledge he seems to carry in his shoulders, in the new lines etched around his eyes.
I notice a familiar face among the waiting performers—the solitary woman, no longer defined by absence but by her own quiet strength. Her eyes meet mine across the distance, and she gives a slight nod of recognition. Near her stands the man with the briefcase, though it's closed now, his attention focused entirely on the Ringmaster.
Then, without ceremony, the Ringmaster looks to the band conductor.
“All performers.”
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